depress, miserable is how i feel now....
i think i start feeling like this since i broke up.. more than 3 years... lost the target of life, no motivation, no happiness.. what i want to do now is just be with BBT everyday and do nothing.. is he really that important and such a big influence in my life? deep wound? i dont know.. sometimes i do miss him but maybe is just because i have been single for a really really really long times and no admirer around me make me feel depress.. looking at friends who are couple and sweet really makes me jealous..
i was thinking, if i happened to accept jj will my life be totally different? i am sure he will really love me and treat me like princess.. stop it yen, there is no if in this life.. everything is fact, no if.. want something to happen? just do it.. you had made your choice, people been waiting so long for you, not to disturb him anymore.. even in your mind, set everyone free..
i'm such a choosy.. i ignore the fact that when i'm choose people, people choose me too.. with this kind of skin, who will be attracted by me? anyway i'm not attractive at all.. haha.. acne and pimples is always the problems in my life.. i'm really depress with it.. no matter what i done, they keep on popping out..
family problems always bothering me.. i really dont know what to do with it..
im so tired.. tired for keep running away for problems and mistake and at the end, i still have to face it..
i wish someone can love me.. im desperate for love...
