f8 fail............................

todays exam totally make me lose my self confidence.. i thought it will be easy.. only until the last minutes i got so much to write but no time nor chance anymore... chances are giving to those people who are ready and not last minute person like me.. im so regret.. total lost of confidence now has effect my study for f9.. keep thinking of how my future will be? how many paper more? next sem which paper should i take? will i fail all and jus wait for the result and not to pay for the new sem fees? miserable mind is striking me really hard and its hard to cure.. i have no idea why out of sudden i will become so weak.. is it because of family problem? is it really because of daddy having financial problem make me felt that our family angel's wing is hurt and hardly protect me this selfish little girl who always want to enjoy funs and ignore the reality? i feel so sorry for my family.. i hate the feeling of being helpless.. no one can help me, only myself..

please work harder this time.. dont be so selfish and short sighted who only enjoy current and ignore future.. dont always look down on people and be too ego.. you are just like them.. playful..

study.. study.. study..